I have been feeling rather rusty when it comes to my job. Only natural when you’ve been out of the workplace for several years, and especially when starting a new job in a new country. But, my energy levels have been sapped to zero, and I feel there is just so much to learn! Slowly, I am trying to find my feet, every day pushing through, every evening falling asleep on the sofa midway through watching a TV show, every night doing surgeries in my dreams.
Honestly, there have been moments where I’ve felt like giving up. Which sounds crazy when you consider just what I went through to get this job. Nursing in Canada… it’s the same, and it’s different.
Same surgeries. Different methods. Same goals. Different skillset.
At the root of it is homesickness, I think. Brought on by the never-ending comparisons as my mind attempts to integrate the new with the old. I miss the way New Zealand operating rooms work. But, I trudge forward in my new life. It will get easier… it already is getting easier, day by day.